No blogging motivation~

I have lost all my blogging motivation. It is true I have been so busy, but I have no other excuses other than I just don't feel like blogging these days. I'll try to do a quick catch up, but I can't promise a great post ;) Ryan is still looking for work. The Coca-Cola plant never did call him back. He recently took some classes for being a security guard, and took his test today. He will get the results in about 2 weeks, and then can get his license to be a security officer. He has actually always wanted to look into that, but never did, up until recently. I'm glad he did, and I hope it will go well. That may be a BIG reason that I'm just not myself. It has been about 14 months since he worked a steady, full time job. I have been through a lot of ups and downs, spiritually. I wish I could just be up and stay happy. The last year has just been so messed up for us, it definitely hasn't felt normal. Please pray for our family...
Our kids had a great Halloween. Taylor was a Pirate, and Blake was Wolverine (X-Men). Honestly, that is all I can come up with right now. Hopefully I'll get back into this blogging routine someday~

We're almost there!

This last month has been nothing less than complete chaos in my life. This move has been by far the WORST move ever for us. We've had issue upon issue, trial upon trial during it. It started off okay, but we've had a few delays. First of all, Steve's passing (which I can't believe was almost one month ago), and we've had a lot of weather issues that slowed down our move AND the transmission went out in our van. So we have been without it for about 3 weeks now, and I'm realizing just how much I need it! The only other vehicle we have is a very small pickup that really can only hold 3 people (and our family has 4) so we HAVE to drive around with Blake laying on our laps. We don't really go anywhere as a family, except church. But it has been a pain anyway. Oh well, I'm just thankful that we do at least have the truck. I'm just hoping we can get our van fixed, I know it is going to be a VERY EXPENSIVE thing to fix though. But back to the move, we are SO close to being done, I think one more day at the old house and we will be DONE!!! And of course the unpacking at this new place, but still, we are almost done!!! WHOO HOO! I don't want to even THINK of moving for a long time! Lord willing.

And today is one of those days that I just think of my Dad all day, because it has been 4 years ago that we lost him. Last year I made a slideshow of him and I cried all day. Today, I've been okay, as far as the emotions go, but I still miss him so much.

I just can't believe how this last year has flown by, it seems like I JUST made the slideshow of my dad, and it seems like Ryan and I JUST went to Dallas for our 9th anniversary. And it is that time of the year again. Our 10th anniversary is just around the corner (in like 2-3 weeks). Ryan wants to go back to Dallas, but our money situation isn't great, so I don't know what will actually happen. And speaking of time flying, I can't BELIEVE that we have been married 10 years!!! Wow.

And last but not least, I wanted to post a picture of my sweet little niece, gosh I just adore her!!! She is the most precious baby!!!

Me and my little ♥ Madison ♥

Moving stinks!!!

Ugh! We are still not fully moved! We have been trying to move for close to a month now. Half of our items are in the old house and half in the new house. We have had 2 setbacks during this move, first Steve passed away and we took a few days to go to his funeral, and now the weather is preventing us from moving. On Thursday, I was working on getting the last few things packed, I am ALMOST done packing up there, and then the weather got bad. So I headed down to the new house and it is a good thing, because this morning I woke up to a LOT of snow. All of Oklahoma has a ton of snow. I'm going to be working all this next week on getting the last stuff packed and getting ready for a yard sale. I'm going to sell as much as I can up there, and then have one down at the new place. So again, I'm so sorry that I haven't been on here a lot, but my life is absolutely crazy right now.

I haven't been able to upload any pictures of my new sweetie, Madison, but I will as SOON as I can. I have my cords from my camera packed, and that's the reason I haven't been able to. But I do have a picture of Steve that I wanted to share, so everyone could see what he looked like. It is a picture that I will treasure forever. It is a picture of me and Steve in 1986, I was 5 and Steve was 30. He had a beautiful funeral. It couldn't have been a more perfect funeral. There were Elvis songs (Steve was a HUGE Elvis fan). The songs were beautiful, the talks about Steve were perfect, then at the burial, they had a bagpiper, because Steve liked bagpipes. The song choices were: "Daddy's Hands", "I can only Imagine","Milky White Way(Elvis)","Amazing Grace (bagpipes)", "The Way that he Loves (Steve's favorite gospel song)." Like I said, it was a beautiful service, Steve would have been so happy. I think there were between 600-700 people. There were people in the basement, standing room only, there were even people outside. He was loved by SO many people. He was very outgoing, and anyone who had ever met him, has never forgotten him, he was quite a guy!

I sure do hope everyone is doing good, I am ready for life to get back to normal for me so I can keep up with every one's blogs. :)

Writer's block...AGAIN

Hey everyone. I first of all want to apologize about not being on here as much since my trip to Colorado this summer. After getting out of the habit of posting blogs, I just can't seem to get back into the groove. Plus, I've had A LOT of ups and downs in my life happen. Mostly downs. I'm not really myself lately. Please continue to pray for my family. My husband and I have been through some rough times in the last few months. The adversary is REALLY trying to split us up. He hasn't worked in over 2 months, and I've found myself losing my patience with him. That's why I've been working lately, so we would have SOME income, certainly not even close to enough to pay all of our bills. We are in a desperate situation. Something needs to change, and FAST. We can't keep going like this. So please, keep us in your prayers, and please continue to have patience with my blogging, I will return to my old self, after these trials pass. I care for each and every person that I've gotten to know. Until next time, take care :)

I won't be here as much, starting VERY soon.

I wanted to write and let everyone know that I won't be on here near as much as I used to be. I am having to go back to work. I already have had an interview, and I think I'm as good as hired. It will be full time, so I will be SUPER busy. I would much rather be staying home and keeping up the house, but unfortunately, that won't work for a while. The kids are in school in the daytime anyway, so I won't be losing time with my family, so that's good. Some things have happened that has forced Ryan and I to make this decision. Please keep us in your prayers, we really need them, we're going through a LOT.

One wrong thing to another...

Today hasn't been the best day... First of all, I woke up to our driveway being tore up, which really didn't bother me that much, except for it will probably take them several days to repair it. Then, Ryan called me this afternoon and told me that he had a blow out on one of the tires on our truck. So I had to go get him and get the tire off. We also noticed that the spare tire has a screw in it. We then took the broken tire to a tire place, to see if they had any used tires, because we honestly don't have enough money for a new tire. Of course they didn't have a used tire, and their new tires were about $70.00 each. So we came back to the house and I thought I would just have the spare tire repaired and just buy another spare tire when we could. So I went to have the spare tire repaired, and of course they couldn't do it... Because the screw was on the side of the tire, well kind of the bottom/side. SO there went that idea. So I am going to have to call around tomorrow and try to find somewhere with a used tire. I hate leaving our truck by the side of the road, mainly because I don't want it vandalized. I know I need to just relax about it though. I'm actually very thankful that Ryan wasn't killed when he had the blowout. He said the truck was swerving pretty good on the road. I'm so glad that God allowed him to keep control of the truck and be able to pull off the side of the road. By the way... this happened on a highway that has a speed limit of 75 MPH, and I'm sure Ryan was going at least that fast. Please keep us in your prayers.

WHY!?!?!?

Well... I'm on foot again, probably for at least a week or two. Our stupid van started messing up yesterday. We were driving over to see RD and Andra's precious baby boy and it started making a weird noise. It sounded like we were constantly driving over branches and they were hitting up into our engine. We pulled over and looked under the hood. We saw that our fan belt was halfway ripped and we are pretty sure that it is what is making the noise. So we went home and got into our teeny tiny truck. Poor Blake had to sit on the floorboard. We probably wouldn't have went then, but I had made them some homemade cinnamon rolls. And by the way, Ryan and I are on a diet, so I didn't want them staying in our house, LOL. We did make it over there and it was SO worth it. I got to hold Caanan for about an hour. He's so SWEET!!!

But anyway, Ryan drives the truck to work and that is why I'm on foot. Thank goodness we live 2 blocks from the park, so we can go there. And I can go get groceries or whatever I need to get in the evening. HOPEFULLY we will get that tax check in the next week or two. As soon as we get it, the first thing I'm going to do is buy the parts I need to fix our van. Right now, we need: a radiator condenser (for the A/C), a left front fender, a left lamplight, and now a fan belt. And hopefully we can get it fixed shortly after I get all the parts. It is really miserable driving around with no A/C in Oklahoma. Anyway, I just needed to vent a little about the stupid van problems. I can't seem to figure out why we ALWAYS get problems like this. And it always happens when we don't even have 2 pennies to rub together (not literally, but pretty close). PLEASE pray for us, we are going through a REALLY tough time (mainly financial). We really need it. Thank you :)

ANNOYING!!!

I have allergies SO bad today! I think I've sneezed 100+ times today! Please remember me, I'm trying to get my house clean, and this is really slowing me down! Sorry, I just felt the need to vent a little!

Yard sale is over, but not a sucess :(

Well I closed down my yard sale for good. I didn't sell everything by a long shot. I made maybe $60.00, which is better than nothing I guess. It may pay one bill that I needed to pay. I'm going to put a few things on craigslist and keep them for a week, then whatever I haven't sold, I'm donating! It's not going back in my house, and not staying in my garage! HEHE, So basically my Step 1 in my garage transformation is complete. I'm so excited to get all the yard sale stuff cleared out and start organizing the shelves. I have enough shelves that it shouldn't be hard to get everything in a good place. But like I mentioned yesterday, I have found SEVERAL things that I had lost, so it was like finding treasure. HEHE. Anyway... I'm a little disappointed, but definitely glad it's over with, they are such a pain to have.

SLOW day :(

Well I did manage to get my yard sale totally set up and going today. Unfortunately it has been a really slow day. I've only had maybe 10 people all day long. I'm closing it down for the day and hoping tomorrow will be a lot better, we truly need it to be better than this. I did however manage to find something wonderful to come out of all of this work I've done: I've found a lot of things that I've been looking for for a year or two! It's always nice to finally find things that you have NO idea where they have went to! So I'm happy about that. I've unpacked 6 or 7 boxes that were just left in the garage and forgotten about. YAY!

On another note, I do have some sad news. We've lost a wonderful person, Sis Deanie. I'm thankful that her suffering is over, but I'm sure going to miss her smiling face, she was a SWEET person. I had grown to really love her, I only met her about 6 months ago, but loved her very much. I'm so sorry JoAnn.

Something really bothering me :(

I know I already posted something today, but I have had something that has really been troubling me. My Dad was a diabetic the last few years of his life and because of that, a lot of time his feet hurt, or he didn't have feeling in them. He also said that he had a burning sensation in them a lot. Anyway, diabetes really took a toll on his poor feet. I would watch him take his shoes off and rub his feet, trying to get feeling back in his feet. I just sat there and watched him, and rarely offered to help him. I honestly don't like massaging people. When Ryan asks me to rub his back, I'll do it, but I don't exactly like doing it. I have to be in the right mood to offer to do it. My Dad asked me a time or two to rub his feet, and I did it, I just wasn't very enthusiastic about it. I just thought of this today, it was the first time I've EVER thought of it. I wish I could turn back time and do what little I could to make my Dad feel better. I feel so little right now. He did SO much for me and I didn't do as much as I should have for him. This thought tears me up! What point I would like to get across to you all is PLEASE don't take people for granted, they won't always be here. Now is the time to do for others. I just felt like sharing this with you all.

Allergy season

Ugh, I HATE allergies! I had NEVER once had allergies before I was pregnant. Now I get them severely! It stinks! I always feel like I have to sneeze,and when I do, I sneeze a minimum of 5-10 times in a row, and I'm not a quiet sneezer. There is so much power behind my sneezes that I basically have to scream with it,I don't mean to, but I do. And when I'm not sneezing, my nose runs constantly, so I basically have a raw nose by the end of the day. And also my eyes are basically sealed shut because I feel like I need to sneeze. But my eyes stay shut all the time, and they ITCH. Allergies are NOT fun! So yeah, right now, I'm sure you all can guess that I'm suffering with allergies AS WE SPEAK! Please remember me!

I also wanted to show everyone a recent picture of Blake. He has hair again! Yay, hopefully he won't be bald ever again. He is finally looking like his old self again :)

His shirt says, "My Dad is Cooler!" Ryan likes this shirt ;)

Wisdom teeth

I am sitting here in pain and HATING wisdom teeth. I have been sore for well over a week. This particular tooth has been coming in for a couple years. It will grow for a while, leaving me in pain, and then stop for a few months and then grow more, etc... I grew up going to the dentist and my other three wisdom teeth have all been pulled by a dentist. Since my last tooth, I have really gained a lot of faith. It is still SO tempting to go to a dentist, I know it will be practically painless to have the tooth "extracted." But at the same time, I think, ya know if I give in now, God will try me with something else (to make me a stronger person). I want to have TOTAL faith that I could go to my father-in-law and with the help of God, we could get that tooth out of there and I wouldn't have to go through this pain anymore. I'm just really scared of something going wrong. I really do need to get this tooth pulled, it is growing outward (like towards my cheek/jaw). SO PLEASE pray for me that I will have a peace of mind that I can go have it pulled with faith that God will help the person pulling it. And any feedback from others that have been in my shoes would be GREATLY appreciated ;) But please remember me, I really need it!

I'm a HORRIBLE mother!

I feel SO terrible tonight. Blake's hair was getting so long and I was going to go and have his hair cut this weekend. Well, Ryan wanted to do a lot of stuff this weekend and time ran out. I had been watching the many people who cut his hair before and thought it looked pretty easy. So I decided to give it a try. Yeah, it did not look good at all! So Ryan tried to fix my unevenness and kind of cut too much and I was forced to have to shave Blake's hair :( I hate shaved heads so much and did NOT want to do this to him at all! Well he had tons of hair all over his back and all over so I took him to the bathroom and started bath water. In the meantime, he saw himself in the mirror and literally started bawling. I told him that he would have hair again and very soon. He quit crying, but is still VERY UNHAPPY about it. I told him I would NEVER try to cut his hair again, I would from now on go to the people to pay them to cut his hair. I'm SO SORRY Blake!